The Gift of My Self

Let me be the first to Honor God in the Name of Jesus and by the Power of the Holy Spirit for the gift of MY SELF! 

Happy Birthday Pia! 

Know that God has made you in your uniqueness to live for Him. You have been created in His image and likeness and that you represent Him according to His statutes. You have been given the grace to truly govern, and also been given power by the Holy Spirit to prevail strong and victorious in every circumstance. Peace will be your message in the midst of chaos and peril. Your God-given wisdom will align that which is crooked. You have been given talents that will birth a new generation that will breathe the Word of the Spirit of Christ! Multiplicity and hastening of godly gifts will be your portion in this season. You hold a spear that will lead your troops toward righteousness. You are a sharp arrow who will negotiate in the city gates for heavenly invasion to take place. The rod of iron is in your hands to pull down strongholds that have no godly agenda. Your voice will call a mighty breed of true warriors to engage in tangible movements in the dimensions of the spirit. Increase in the gifts that God made available for you. His Word is your material to build. It will be your only portion of strength and direction. Run the race like you have never done before. God is greater than any of your past put together. What God has planned for you, all darkness put together will not stop it! Love God with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your soul and with all your spirit. 

I pray the Lord increase your capacity to serve and truly live for the sake of others. You have been called completely for the purposes of God most High!!! You carry in you a kingdom that will not be shaken. It is birthed in RIGHTEOUSNESS, PEACE, JOY in the Holy Spirit!!! Lead with God’s power! 

To my dearest family, friends and spiritual leaders, I love you! Thank you for always covering me with prayers, for believing in me, for lending me your faith even when I haven’t got enough for myself. This is a year of breakthrough for all of us! May God protect each one of you and hold your every endeavor so that still, His name will be glorified. 

(Special thanks to Ulysses Anongos, a dear friend, batchmate and brother in the Lord,  who passed away last year. Your life has made such an impact in mine. The prayer above was his and I am speaking it over me as an honor to Jesus Christ, the author and finisher of our faith.) 



About two years ago, I almost walked out on my faith in God. I didn’t wanna serve Him anymore. I didn’t wanna have anything to do with church anymore. Almost wasn’t even not the right word to describe it, because in my heart and in my mind I already did.

I am not happy where I am now, so what’s the point of staying here? 

I was ready to give up my relationship with God to run away with a man whom I thought I love but didn’t wanna have anything to do with Jesus. It’s me and him against the world. Just like those hollywood drama lovestories.

And so one day, I came to a point where I had to make a decision. 

I only get to pick one guy! 

Him or Jesus. 

“It’s now or never!” I said to myself.

My mind says, Jesus but my hardened heart picked him. 

So, I made that choice. 

Immediately, I picked up my phone and told him to meet up with me. And so, he did. But something unexpected happened. 

“No, I can’t carry on with this relationship,” he said to me and walked out.

Heartbroken, alone and abandoned, I dropped to my knees before the Lord with my hands covering my face in shame and in guilt. 

Where do I go now, God, but only to You? After everything I’ve done, why do you still hold on to me? 

As I cry my heart in shame, I felt the Holy Spirit press upon my heart as He reminded me of the prayers I wrote in my journal several years ago. Those days when I would sing my heart out to God as I write my joyfilled prayers:

“Dear God, I love you so much! I am so afraid to lose you and be apart from your love. Please Lord, one thing I ask you, as there may come a time in my life when I will try to let go of Your hands. If ever that time may ever come, please don’t let go of mine.” 

Then God spoke to my heart, “I just answered your prayers, Pia. I didn’t let go of your hands, because you asked me not to.”

Two years ago, I almost lost my relationship with God. Yes, almost, and that is because He wouldn’t let me because He loves me so much to let me ruin myself. And I am sharing this journey to let you all know that He is a loving and forgiving God and even when we are faithless, He remains faithful. (2 Timothy 2:13). 

I’m grateful for that moment, because it allowed me to see the condition of my heart and allowed Jesus to bring healing and wholeness to my being. Now, I am enjoying a wonderful relationship with Jesus. He is the lover of my soul. The only One who completes me! 

Breakthrough Thinking

Breakthrough Thinking

I just want to share this notes which have been very helpful to me as I went through my own struggles in life to achieve the breakthrough that I am enjoying right now. I hope this helps you as well.  Always remember, just like what the Bible says in Proverbs 23:7, “As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” 

1. Reprogramming the future. We can not go to the past, not anymore.

2. It cannot be changed. There is no reverse gear to what is said and done. It becomes a past happening.

3. We are technically wired in what happened in the past. We must posses our future by living now.

4. The events together with its events are stored in our subconscious mind; everything in the past…everything… The memory contains every emotion and feeling in everything that took place in the past. When we still feel and emote even if it is already a thing of the past, is a clear indication that it has not yet been totally overcome.

5. The past has its own pattern and format. It is relative to its individual. It categorizes events to its own perspective depending on its core values and beliefs.

6. Our past can affect our future and often does not prepare us to face the future. Our past has its limitation and this we learnt from the past. A good man learns from his mistake but the wise learn from the good man. Until limitations are destroyed, we continue to recycle the past into the future. We must breakthrough over these things.

7. The past programs us to operate within the framework of what we have already become. Often there is a gap between what you ought to be and what you are now. What caused this? Disobedience.

8. The past constantly finds the opportunity to resurface and revive its strength and create a strong hold of our present and our future. We must not allow our past to encroach into our future. We should stop its advances.

9. The consequences of the past can be reduced in its advances as we arrest it in the now.

10. The past carries spiritual influences and its lifestyle and dealings on the earth which can be carried forward into the present and the future. Unless there is a clear cut off of the past, these influences will continue on into the the present and then the future. Today is the last day of the past and the the beginning of the future. We must set an expiry date of the past that hinders us.

“Our thoughts control our life, but we have the mind of Christ.”

Source: Notes taken (as shared in facebook) by the late Ulysses Anongos’ from the “Breakthrough Thinking Manual” by Dr. Jonathan David

Sowing Seeds in Time of Tears

Sowing Seeds in Time of Tears

“He who goes our weeping carrying seeds to sow, will return with songs of joy carrying sheaves with him.” Psalm 126:6

There is nothing like the season of sorrow as it is nothing like a time of being alone with God. You’ll never know Christ until He has brought you through something all by yourself and you chose to be obedient to Him and He was faithful to you!

If God has allowed you to a deeply sorrowful season of your life and have been challenged to sow a seed in your season of tears where you have asked for it to be taken or delivered from it. You can be sure that God is up to something so BIG that there is a greater glory at stake. Remain faithful to the end because the harder the test, the greater the effects of the past tests that even your entire line is going to be marked by your faithfulness. God has a promise to fulfill inspite of your emotions, your situation or even your destructive self.

The question is, do you believe God in your season of tears?

I am the Love you’ve been looking for

I am the Love you’ve been looking for

My Precious One,

Focus your eyes on me. Remove everything in your life that hinders you from coming close to Me. I desire to reveal Myself more to you. I want your full undivided attention. Look to Me. Spend more time with Me.

I am all that you need.

I am faithful and will fulfill every promise I spoke to you. Be satisfied with My love. I long to fill every broken and empty spaces in your heart because no one else can fill them but Me.

I am the Love you’ve long been waiting for. I am the Husband that you seek. Will you let Me love you? Will you let Me heal you, protect you and give you everything that you need?

I love you. I always have. I always will.

My love for you is nothing like this world can give. It is pure, true, unfailing and eternal.

When you feel unloved, look to Me. Look at My nail-pierced hands. I died for you. I suffered all the pain, bore all the wrath for you – so that you might have life and have it more abundantly. I gave up heaven to seek you, pursue you, find you and be with you – because heaven isn’t complete without you.

You’re my beautiful precious bride and You are worthy of My love.

With all My heart,


Come As You Are 

Come As You Are 

“Jesus said to them, `Come away with me. Let us go alone to a quiet place and rest for a while.'” – Mark 6:31

With a big pile of laundry on the floor, toilet bowl on the side, and a cup of coffee on the other side of the floor with a bible laid out on a dirty toilet rug, I know, this may not be the most glamorous place to spend your morning and have a cup of coffee, but it’s my most favourite place in the house and my most sacred moment of the day. 

Here, I can cry all I want, pray, kneel and bow and sing my heart out and most importantly, I can just be myself because no one is watching and no one else is listening. 

Here, is where most of my battles are won – not when I’m outside the world but when I’m on my knees.

I used to neglect my quiet time with God because of trying to be busy with so many different things, but when I went through a difficult season in my life, there, I truly understood why Jesus told Martha, “Mary has chosen what is best and it will not be taken away from her.” 

Indeed, it is BEST because no one else in this world could comfort you, give you peace, heal your hurts and pain, strengthen you and encourage you to go and move forward in life than God. He loves you and He wants to meet you and spend time with you like you’re the most important person in the world! 🙂 

And He wouldn’t mind meeting you in the toilet! Just come as you are. 

Prayer of Repentance

Prayer of Repentance

This was one of the prayers I have kept very close to my heart during the time when I was in my lowest point.  I remember having this Psalm printed off in a piece of paper, kept in my handbag so I could read it for later and make it my own as I slipped into a quiet place to be alone with God. I prayed it over and over until my soul breaks and cries out for grace and mercy. At first, my emotions felt numbed and didn’t want to feel any remorse over my sins. The spirit inside me was battling with my flesh as it didn’t want to let go of its evil doings. So, I have to take it captive and make it obedient to Christ.

As I declare and verbalize it almost everyday during those moments, suddenly that day came when I finally broke out in true repentance.

“There’s no turning back!”, I said to myself.

That was the beginning of yet another chapter in my life. The life that didn’t start off easy nor sweet, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Thank you, Jesus!  

Psalm 51 (New Life Version)

Prayer of the Sinner

 O God, favor me because of Your loving-kindness. Take away my wrong-doing because of the greatness of Your loving-pity. Wash me inside and out from my wrong-doing and make me clean from my sin. For I know my wrong-doing, and my sin is always in front of me. I have sinned against You, and You only. I have done what is sinful in Your eyes. You are always right when You speak, and fair when You judge.

See, I was born in sin and was in sin from my very beginning. See, You want truth deep within the heart. And You will make me know wisdom in the hidden part. Take away my sin, and I will be clean. Wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Make me hear joy and happiness. Let the bones that You have broken be full of joy. Hide Your face from my sins. And take away all my wrong-doing.

10 Make a clean heart in me, O God. Give me a new spirit that will not be moved. 11 Do not throw me away from where You are. And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. 12 Let the joy of Your saving power return to me. And give me a willing spirit to obey you. 13 Then I will teach wrong-doers Your ways. And sinners will turn to You.

14 Save me from the guilt of blood, O God. You are the God Who saves me. Then my tongue will sing with joy about how right and good You are. 15 O Lord, open my lips, so my mouth will praise You. 16 For You are not happy with a gift given on the altar in worship, or I would give it. You are not pleased with burnt gifts. 17 The gifts on an altar that God wants are a broken spirit. O God, You will not hate a broken heart and a heart with no pride.

18 Be pleased to do good to Zion. Build the walls of Jerusalem. 19 Then You will be happy with gifts given on the altar that are right and good, with burnt gifts and whole burnt gifts. Then young bulls will be given on Your altar.