In the morning of 23rd June, my birthday, I was excited to get out of bed and speak to God (as I want Him to be the first person I’d speak to on that day), I hurriedly went to my usual ‘quiet’ place, i.e. toilet, with my bible and prayed to God, “Father, thank you that it’s my birthday today. God, tell me, what’s your word for me? Remember, it’s my birthday. So it has to be very special!” (As if God doesn’t know that already! Hahaha!)
(I closed my eyes, opened my ears… then pause… long moment of silence…) So, I prayed again, “God, is there anything you want to say to me… for my birthday?” (With eyes closed, I paused again… then silence..) Then as I linger and wait on God, He reminded me of the verse in Proverbs 31:10, which is a verse I usually quote to my closest friends on their birthdays. God silently spoke to my heart, “My daughter, you are worth far above rubies!”
So, I immediately opened my bible to Proverbs 31 and read the whole chapter. As I read it, every word jumped right at me. I’ve read this chapter several times in my life and often I’d quote it to encourage other women. But this time, I felt the Lord affirming me and showing me all the good things that He’s already done in me, to me and through me – like a Father who is so proud of His daughter.
I knew God has done so many great things in my life over the past 40 years but often, I’d try not to see them and most of the time, I’d take them for granted. I also knew I had the tendency to compare myself with others, their achievements and then look at myself, my mishaps and the mistakes I’ve done in the past. I’d measure my worth and value in the eyes of the world which would often leave me feeling sorry for myself and afterwards I’d come to God and say, “I’m just not there yet, Lord! Perhaps, I need to do some more ‘good’.”
But at that moment, I felt God reassuring me with His words, “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!” At this point I was already welling up in tears. I needed so bad to hear those words. It’s as if, all those years, I’ve been chasing and wanting someone to affirm me my entire life and there I was… in the toilet… but in the presence of God Almighty, the Creator of heaven and all the universe speaking these words to me… so sweet… and I felt extremely humbled.
Oh God! Who am I? I’m so unworthy!
And as I was about to leave my prayer ‘closet’, He gently spoke again in my heart and said, “This is why you are so precious to me, my daughter. You are my greatest treasure!”
That moment was the best birthday present ever!
I came out of that room that day feeling awesome, loved, energized and ready to face this new season of my life!
You’re amazing, God! Bring it on! 🙂