“This is what the Lord says: ‘I remember the devotion of your youth, how as a bride you loved me and followed me through the wilderness, through a land not sown.'” – Jeremiah 2:2
I was a runaway bride. At some point in my journey with my Heavenly Groom not too long ago, I questioned His love for me.
You no longer hold my hand.
You left me all alone.
You don’t really love me.
And so I began to wander… On my own. Hoping that I could somehow find cure to this wallowing loneliness. I began to believe that the life – the one that leads to eternal life was nothing but an empty promise. So I completely let go of His hand. Believing that He has let go of mine even before I had the opportunity to do so.
The wanderings led me to a familiar place. A place I once had left behind. The loud music, the merry dancing, the laughing and the drinking. It surely made me feel somehow ‘complete’.
And so I thought.
However, the more I succumb to it, the more I hear that tiny little voice inside my heart trying to call me back.
“Come home, my darling, come home.”
But I resisted over and over. Thinking to myself that I was never really loved, so why bother?
You don’t see me. You don’t hear me.
I watched myself return to my old ways and my old way of thinking. Inside me came a raging battle – a war to win my heart. Until the time finally came, I wanted the torment to stop and I needed to make a choice.
Who am I going to give my heart to?
Then I remember the Lord’s words to me:
“I remember how eager you were to please me as a young bride long ago, how you loved me and followed me even through the barren wilderness.” (Jeremiah 2:2 NLT)
Indeed, I eagerly followed him before. In fact, I followed him everywhere He leads me. In sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, till death do us part. I loved Him. And yes, I still do.
So I turned around and go back to my Groom. It was no surprise that He’s still there – waiting for me, longing to see me home.
So I asked Him with tears running down my cheeks, “Will you still take me as your bride?”
He didn’t even ask me where I’ve been or what I’ve done. But He only said,
“I will make you my wife forever, showing you righteousness and justice, unfailing love and compassion. I will be faithful to you and make you mine, and you will finally know me as the LORD.” (Hosea 2:19-20 NLT)
I was a runaway bride. But not anymore because I have found my one true love. Jesus. ❤️