I originally wrote this blog on the 30th July 2011. I found it as I was trawling through my previous journals. I thought it might be interesting to write a follow up three years later. Don’t forget to read the conclusion in my blog, “Mission: Accomplished“.
30th July 2011
Have you ever come to a point in your career where you felt as if you are only sitting on a stool and that is just about it day in and day out? You wanted to move up but unfortunately there isn’t any ladder to climb up to? Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful to still have a job. It certainly pays my bills, gives help to some needy friends and family and I could still manage to save some for the future. However, like I said, it is a job. But career? I oftentimes doubt it.
There are also times when I feel as if I am not where I am supposed to be. I was a banker. I worked as a relationship manager for 5 years. I was in a corporate world. The opportunity to climb up the ‘ladder’ was right within my reach. But that all changed when I chose to leave my own country and chose to work in a country where the kind of job I desire was not available simply because I came from a Third World nation and I speak with different accent. (I am not going to dwell on this topic because it is worth a whole new blog, I believe.)
So, to cut the story short, I ended up working in a construction industry which I didn’t have any clue how it actually operates. I started out as administrator, then I became an HR assistant. Later on, thanks to recession, I am now an office manager-slash-receptionist-slash-accountant-slash-PRO-slash-PA-slash-Project administrator-slash-name-it-i-will-be-it-for you, etc. If you are really going to look at it, it wasn’t really a stool I’m sitting on. I have, as a matter of fact, hoarded the ladder all to myself that I can climb up and down whenever I want to. How cool is that?
Everyday I get tempted to look at things in the eye of liability. I may choose to compare myself with all my other friends who have been getting the ‘titles’ and ‘promotions’ I desire and resent sitting on my ‘stool’. Or I may choose to compare myself with the millions of unemployed people out there who are dying to be where I am and be grateful for what I have.
I may choose to be on both sides of the fence. But deep inside my heart, I know one thing for certain, whatever my emotions towards my job or career or the people I work with, I am where I am for a purpose. A purpose far greater than my feelings or my dreams or myself. It was never an accident why I am still here. Everything I do and have is not about me. It is about the One who appointed me to be where I am for such a time as this. Until that purpose has been fulfilled, I will remain where I am. I do not know how long I need to stay here but when the time comes for me to move, only then will I move. I am pretty sure that it will not really be a ‘promotion’ as the world defines it. But it would be another mission from heaven – a new assignment, an expansion of uncharted territories with more lives to be touched. I am so looking forward to that day!