Sowing Seeds in Time of Tears

Sowing Seeds in Time of Tears

“He who goes our weeping carrying seeds to sow, will return with songs of joy carrying sheaves with him.” Psalm 126:6

There is nothing like the season of sorrow as it is nothing like a time of being alone with God. You’ll never know Christ until He has brought you through something all by yourself and you chose to be obedient to Him and He was faithful to you!

If God has allowed you to a deeply sorrowful season of your life and have been challenged to sow a seed in your season of tears where you have asked for it to be taken or delivered from it. You can be sure that God is up to something so BIG that there is a greater glory at stake. Remain faithful to the end because the harder the test, the greater the effects of the past tests that even your entire line is going to be marked by your faithfulness. God has a promise to fulfill inspite of your emotions, your situation or even your destructive self.

The question is, do you believe God in your season of tears?

I am the Love you’ve been looking for

I am the Love you’ve been looking for

My Precious One,

Focus your eyes on me. Remove everything in your life that hinders you from coming close to Me. I desire to reveal Myself more to you. I want your full undivided attention. Look to Me. Spend more time with Me.

I am all that you need.

I am faithful and will fulfill every promise I spoke to you. Be satisfied with My love. I long to fill every broken and empty spaces in your heart because no one else can fill them but Me.

I am the Love you’ve long been waiting for. I am the Husband that you seek. Will you let Me love you? Will you let Me heal you, protect you and give you everything that you need?

I love you. I always have. I always will.

My love for you is nothing like this world can give. It is pure, true, unfailing and eternal.

When you feel unloved, look to Me. Look at My nail-pierced hands. I died for you. I suffered all the pain, bore all the wrath for you – so that you might have life and have it more abundantly. I gave up heaven to seek you, pursue you, find you and be with you – because heaven isn’t complete without you.

You’re my beautiful precious bride and You are worthy of My love.

With all My heart,

Jesus

Come As You Are 

Come As You Are 

“Jesus said to them, `Come away with me. Let us go alone to a quiet place and rest for a while.'” – Mark 6:31

With a big pile of laundry on the floor, toilet bowl on the side, and a cup of coffee on the other side of the floor with a bible laid out on a dirty toilet rug, I know, this may not be the most glamorous place to spend your morning and have a cup of coffee, but it’s my most favourite place in the house and my most sacred moment of the day. 

Here, I can cry all I want, pray, kneel and bow and sing my heart out and most importantly, I can just be myself because no one is watching and no one else is listening. 

Here, is where most of my battles are won – not when I’m outside the world but when I’m on my knees.

I used to neglect my quiet time with God because of trying to be busy with so many different things, but when I went through a difficult season in my life, there, I truly understood why Jesus told Martha, “Mary has chosen what is best and it will not be taken away from her.” 

Indeed, it is BEST because no one else in this world could comfort you, give you peace, heal your hurts and pain, strengthen you and encourage you to go and move forward in life than God. He loves you and He wants to meet you and spend time with you like you’re the most important person in the world! 🙂 

And He wouldn’t mind meeting you in the toilet! Just come as you are. 

Prayer of Repentance

Prayer of Repentance

This was one of the prayers I have kept very close to my heart during the time when I was in my lowest point.  I remember having this Psalm printed off in a piece of paper, kept in my handbag so I could read it for later and make it my own as I slipped into a quiet place to be alone with God. I prayed it over and over until my soul breaks and cries out for grace and mercy. At first, my emotions felt numbed and didn’t want to feel any remorse over my sins. The spirit inside me was battling with my flesh as it didn’t want to let go of its evil doings. So, I have to take it captive and make it obedient to Christ.

As I declare and verbalize it almost everyday during those moments, suddenly that day came when I finally broke out in true repentance.

“There’s no turning back!”, I said to myself.

That was the beginning of yet another chapter in my life. The life that didn’t start off easy nor sweet, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Thank you, Jesus!  

Psalm 51 (New Life Version)

Prayer of the Sinner

 O God, favor me because of Your loving-kindness. Take away my wrong-doing because of the greatness of Your loving-pity. Wash me inside and out from my wrong-doing and make me clean from my sin. For I know my wrong-doing, and my sin is always in front of me. I have sinned against You, and You only. I have done what is sinful in Your eyes. You are always right when You speak, and fair when You judge.

See, I was born in sin and was in sin from my very beginning. See, You want truth deep within the heart. And You will make me know wisdom in the hidden part. Take away my sin, and I will be clean. Wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Make me hear joy and happiness. Let the bones that You have broken be full of joy. Hide Your face from my sins. And take away all my wrong-doing.

10 Make a clean heart in me, O God. Give me a new spirit that will not be moved. 11 Do not throw me away from where You are. And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. 12 Let the joy of Your saving power return to me. And give me a willing spirit to obey you. 13 Then I will teach wrong-doers Your ways. And sinners will turn to You.

14 Save me from the guilt of blood, O God. You are the God Who saves me. Then my tongue will sing with joy about how right and good You are. 15 O Lord, open my lips, so my mouth will praise You. 16 For You are not happy with a gift given on the altar in worship, or I would give it. You are not pleased with burnt gifts. 17 The gifts on an altar that God wants are a broken spirit. O God, You will not hate a broken heart and a heart with no pride.

18 Be pleased to do good to Zion. Build the walls of Jerusalem. 19 Then You will be happy with gifts given on the altar that are right and good, with burnt gifts and whole burnt gifts. Then young bulls will be given on Your altar.

Chosen Royals

I saw this image and verse today from facebook and it really strikes me as God reminded me again of my identity as “royalty.”

In 1 Peter 2:9 it says, “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”

How easy it is to forget our true identity in Christ. After suffering from depression for more than a year, I know how difficult and challenging it is to fight for this very identity that the devil has been trying, right from the beginning, to take away from us.

It is true that the moment we forget who we are, that’s the beginning of our defeat. We forget whose we are. We begin to lose our sense of direction in life. We lose sight of our purpose. We become dependent on our own strength. We lose our power until we are so weak to even get up. This is why, it is so important that we keep this identity engraved deep within our spirit.

We are royals. That’s what we are – though not by virtue of birth, but by God’s choice.

In John 15:16, Jesus says, “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you.”

We are His chosen people. We are the Bride of Christ – handpicked to be His own.

The perfect picture of this can be seen in the Book of Esther, where an orphan Hebrew girl and an exile in the most powerful empire at the time – to be chosen from among thousands of young virgins to be the next Queen of Persia.

“Now the king was attracted to Esther more than to any of the other women, and she won his favor and approval more than any of the other virgins. So he set a royal crown on her head and made her queen instead of Vashti.” – Esther‬ ‭2:17‬ ‭NIV

However, since the fight for our true identity in Christ is real. There is a purpose and a huge responsibility that is included in this calling. We are to work hand-in-hand with God in bringing more people into His Kingdom. There are so many lost souls out there perishing everyday, and we are not to just sit around and do nothing. We got to do something and there is no time to waste.

“For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your fatherʼs family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”  – Esther‬ ‭4:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The fight is not only for our own personal gain, but moreso that those who have been living going round in circles trying to find their own place in this world may be able to find their real identity in God. And that time is NOW.

Forget the Past

Forget the Past

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.” Isaiah 43:18

My dear child,

Let me give you brand new desires. Forget the former things. Let’s start all over again. The old has gone. The past has passed. There’s nothing you could do about it now. But you can do something today.

Look at me. Focus your eyes on me. I am your God… and NO other. Run towards me. Listen to my voice and follow me.

I got you. You’re no longer lost. You are found.

I will take care of you, feed you, protect you and heal your wounds. It’s all going to be alright. You’re in a safe place now.

Rest.

With all my love,

Father God.

Resting as you Wait

Resting as you Wait

Thank you, ‘Daughters of the King’ for this very lovely devotional today. It was so timely, as there have been so many moments over the past few weeks where I come to a point that I am already feeling so tired of waiting. Most often, God would give me something else – which seems irrelevant to me. Or sometimes, He takes me to a situation where He would bring out some emotional wound in my past which have been buried so deep by time. Then I would realize, that perhaps the reason He hasn’t fulfilled those promises yet is because He is trying to make me whole first. After all, He knows what I need the most and at this point, I just have to learn to rest as I wait. 🙂

God bless.

(“Resting as you Wait – Devotional courtesy of Daughters of the King published on 30th January 2017)

“The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord” Lamentations 3:25-26, NKJV.

God healed me physically, but far greater than that, He healed my soul. The physical healing was the taste of His goodness that drew me in, but I never expected my mind and emotions to be healed, even though this is where I was the most broken. I wanted my circumstances to change, but God saw where my real problem was. I was malnourished spiritually and starved for His love. A good earthly father wouldn’t pour his efforts into providing an endless supply of toys when he could clearly see that his child was hungry, would he? Wouldn’t a good father put his resources into feeding his child first? Wouldn’t an even better Father Who sees His children’s hearts know what His children need most? And wouldn’t He then provide it first?

Some of the things we have asked for, God knows we aren’t ready to receive. He hears our desperate pleas, but in His goodness, He waits to give us what we asked for. As we walk on with Him, we see more and more of what our omniscient, all-knowing God always knew. We realize that He was doing what was best for us, even when we thought He was not listening or responding as quickly as we wanted Him to. Realize that your Father truly knows best, and rest in the safety of knowing He is in control.

Prayer:

Father, I am so happy to be Your daughter, and to be able to have this relationship with You that is not tainted by sin. Thank You, Jesus! My heart is changed and that is a miracle above all else! Let me not forget how far You have brought me from the shackles of sin and death. I may not always like Your timing or understand everything, but I know that I can trust You and Your love for me! Help me to wait. Help me to not be afraid of the unknown because I know that You are in control and that You are doing what is best for me at all times! In Jesus’ Name I pray. Amen.

(Read Psalm 34:8, Psalm 27:14, Matthew 7:9-11)